Piece for Interiors
As in a room with the barest qualities
of room (bed, lamp, door), a lime-plastered wall
without windows interposed the almost
cubic space, concealing what may have been
a far corner, a narrow corridor. I heard
two voices in conversation—something
created between them, something about
mind as passion, passion as essential,
terrifying, a self education. I wrote
what they believed. They were beliefs I held,
understood, if not, atmospherically,
as true, but thought that in recording them
they would become physical. The two spoke
with great urgency, in the manner
of revelation until the moment
the lights cut out—wall disappeared. I kept on
with the recording despite not seeing
the page and grew frightened of what waited
beyond the dividing wall, as cautioned
by the speaking pair—remembrance of them
slipping from me. I feared the maybe-
corridor. But no beast or object
announced itself or emerged. Perhaps
it was the word “corridor” itself—its vast gray
light—under which I was so paralyzed.
“Parlysis.” “Terror.” Such are effects
of believing. In darkness I scanned
the fixture, twisted the turn switch,
followed the cord with my fingers
to the outlet in the lime-plastered wall,
but I couldn’t get back to them.
Even when the lights came on. I couldn’t
get back to them. Not even in my notes,
which recorded nothing, described instead
a grid of gray parallel lines
intersecting at clear, defined points.
Some assumed the qualities of figures. Others
receded into space, illegible, fruitless.