Piece for Interiors
As in a room with the barest qualities
of room (bed, lamp, door), a lime-plastered wall
without windows interposed the almost
cubic space, concealing what may have been
a far corner, a narrow corridor. I heard
two voices in conversation—something
created between them, something about
mind as passion, passion as essential,
terrifying, a self education. I wrote
what they believed. They were beliefs I held,
understood, if not, atmospherically,
as true, but thought that in recording them
they would become physical. The two spoke
with great urgency, in the manner
of revelation until the moment
the lights cut out—wall disappeared. I kept on
with the recording despite not seeing
the page. I grew frightened of what waited
beyond the dividing wall, as cautioned
by the speaking pair—remembrance of them
slipping from me. I feared the maybe-
corridor. But no beast or object
announced itself or emerged. Perhaps
it was the word “corridor” itself—its vast gray
light—under which I was so paralyzed.
“Parlysis.” “Terror.” Such are effects
of believing. In darkness I scanned
the fixture, twisted the turn switch,
followed the cord with my fingers
to the outlet in the lime-plastered wall,
but I couldn’t get back to them.
Even when the lights came on. I couldn’t
get back to them. Not even in my notes,
which recorded nothing, described instead
a grid of gray parallel lines
intersecting at clear, defined points.
Some assumed the qualities of figures. Others
receded into space, illegible, fruitless.